Deep thoughts from the work place.

Friday 4:42pm – Well, I got to work almost half an hour early. One of my managers daughters is here. Seems she is waiting for a friend to come pick her up.

I seem to be developing a following of sorts. As I was walking to work, I had two different drivers beep and wave at me, scariest part is I didn’t recognize either driver.

My latest Dean Koontz book has disappeared from work, which sucks because it was just starting to get good and I was really enjoying reading it. I brought blade runner 2: the edge of human with me to read today. If things don’t pick up some I have the feeling I may get half of the book read by time to close this place down.

Sooz called, seems that her and Ms. Katherine got kicked out by Bob once again. So they are on their way back to Metairie as I write this. It’s a long running drama with Bob. One I do not wish to become involved in, I have enough drama in my life already.

I signed up at alt.com the other night. Curiosity got the better of me. I guess James is having more of an impact on my life than I’d like to admit.

6:00pm - It’s still slow here, probably no more than four people in here, and Considering we have forty washers and fifty dryers that says something about how busy it is.

I’ve been watching the news and it reminds me why I hate television. It’s a wonder that humanity as a whole has survived as long as we have. We kill, maim, steal, rape, and defile each other on a daily basis. It makes me wonder just how some can maintain any faith in anything any more.

I fear for the future when I look around at today’s youth, I wonder what the world will be like when they are behind the helm of society, and I just hope I’m already dead by then so I don’t have to see, much less experience a world like that.

I see humanity as a whole, loosing its grip on morality one finger hold at a time. It’s a slow and painful process but I fear that it won’t be long before the general apathy of society overcomes its compassion and when that happens life becomes no longer worth living.

Society has become narcissistic, self centered, and hedonistic. It’s all about “me” from looks to pleasure. Everyone is out for themselves, and no one is willing to accept responsibility for anything they do. It’s always someone else’s fault.

I saw a bumper sticker the other day which said, “We’re all dysfunctional, get over it!”

It’s true, we are all dysfunctional in some respect or another. Some of us are emotionally unstable, others have physical problems, and those who have neither are just plain nuts. You -have- to be mildly insane to survive in this world. Everything is so screwed up that anyone who wasn’t mentally warped in some way would snap under the pressure of just trying to make sense of things.

This is why I’ve given up trying to make sense of things that don’t have direct impact on my daily life.

I guess this is why I prefer to read instead of watch television, Books have a natural order of progression, and in the back of your mind you know the way things will end. Life isn’t so straight forward and certain. It’s messy and chaotic, a haphazard conglomeration of clashing motivations, drives, and desires. Played out at a dangerously fast pace with no consideration for who may be standing in the way.

I guess the only thing any of us can be cert6ain of is the fact that we can be certain of nothing.

From childhood we struggle to understand the world around us, to build rules in which we believe the world operates by. We seek a sense of stability and order in order to find where we fit into the scheme of things. The saddest part of all this is that none of the rules we create in our minds are real, they are false assumptions and all it takes is a touch of chaos to prove those rules false, and turn our lives upside down.

We think we are evolved, advanced, and beyond our origins. What we are is delusional. Sure we may be technologically advanced beyond any other species on this planet but how do we employ that technology? What is our goal as a species?

Humanity has no focused direction. You see more organization in a colony of ants than you see when you look at humanity.

Technology advances constantly, every day a new discovery is made, but in what areas do you see the most advances? Our medical sciences seem content to treat symptoms of diseases, not seek and alleviate the causes.

Communications, do we really need 500 channels of the same, mind numbing garbage, with all the mind nourishing content of marshmallow crème? The stuff is brain candy, and like candy it eats away at your mind leaving rot in it’s wake. Do we really need a cell phone for every man, woman, child and dog? (Yes, that’s right folks, they now market cell phones with GPS locators so you can -track- your dog.)

With all these advances we have made, why are we still dependant on energy from oil when we have the technology to power our society by other means? Why have we not developed a technology that can reduce our waste products to their constituent molecules instead of burying it and pretending it does not exist any more?

Why are there hundreds of thousands of people around the world who don’t even have a basic education, much less a means of acquiring clean, drinkable water and food?

These are just a few, minor questions which should be addressed, and would be addressed by a responsible and truly advanced society.

We have the means to resolve many of the problems which plague our world, however humanity in general is too apathetic to have the desire and motivation to implement the changes that would be required in order to resolve these problems.

Until such time as humanity learns and grows beyond the “me” and “mine” aspect of it’s self, it will never make the sacrifices required to improve humanity as a whole.

To be honest, collective humanity reminds me of a two year old child. The whole concept of quality, sharing, and fair play are alien notions to us as a whole.

What scares me the most about this train of thought is, if humanity is -still- in it’s todlerhood -where- are humanity’s parents? Who is guiding us, teaching us, and raising us?

Who is there, watching over us, keeping us from poking things into wall outlets, or pulling pots of boiling water off the stove?

If we are truly alone as I fear, I don’t believe we as a species will survive into our teens, and if, by some quirk of fate, we do manage to make it into our teens, I feel sorry for any odd species we may run across, because I believe we will be an exceedingly cruel, and uncaring teen. Like some teens who delight in feeding frogs M-80’s or Alkaseltzers to seagulls.